cherofobia

tomodachi life: funniest shit when yesterday i had my first failed fight, and the one who said ‘no’ to ending the fight immediately was like i feel bad and they made up … today though? kaveh genshin impact and my gentle big retriever dog oc had a fight, and said gentle one said no to making up… and is just living his life while kaveh is depressed LMAO… like boy?????

… first giant fight as well … what is today??? day of the fights??? at least that one was very quickly resolved

sadly i had to scrape off some old stickers because they were tattoo stickers and felt melty to the touch, BUT it gave me a good excuse to pull out my sticker packs and re-decorate it!!! the only thing that remained was the noodle zhongli in the center

F tumblr right now for being dead LMAO, but it's moments like these + having a community of art mutuals on bluesky that sometimes makes me wish i was more active there ... but i just. don't have the energy to be there, to keep up with everything, and that makes me feel shitty. i wish i could be there for all of my art friends to see their stuff, reblog, etc etc ... but every time i get on it feels. sapping, like my energy is a cut lifeline that seeps out

i wonder why. maybe it's because it is an art account, so there's a weird Expectation that hangs over my brain to be active, present, give energy i do not easily have to spare. sheezy art was the same. forever a lingering guilt that i can't interact as easily, knowing how much it sucks to get a lack of interaction in return

at least on tumblr i do that with ease on my personal blog, to reblog art of my friends/mutuals when it comes around, and to at least be like #HRGRHGRJGHRGH in the tags. sucks there's some weird mental barrier keeping me from doing it elsewhere. maybe it is because tags feel quieter than a comment, where it feels like i have to articulate myself better than a keysmash of enjoyment because it's so Public

anyway, random thoughts

i will try my best to keep this up as i go along!!!! if ... anything of note happens!!!! i gotta eventually find some format i like ... maybe i'll begin logging these in my daily notes of obsidian then just markdown formatting them back here

warframe: did weekly tower this go around, and finally got around to nuking some weapons to let in some new primes i've bee building ... it really sucks because i dunno what weapons are worth keeping and what's good to delete. that's not a worry for me right now anyway, the ones i got rid of weren't prime weps anyway. rhino still needs an hour to be subsumed so i can put roar on obby's kit ... :/

i still have mixed feelings on oberon's kit rework, imo im still not fully pleased with it. i guess removing his healing may make it a little more interesting to balance getting his invul stacks back up.

tomodachi life: kaveh and zhongli getting into an argument was the funniest thing ever like guys. guys why are u throwing shit at each other. not mentioned that happened yesterday was zhongli doing the 'catch the item' minigame and dropping an engagement ring ... like sir, is this for sylvie ...

genshin: average skill mat farm day for columbina mats. she is now up to ... 1/10/9, i'll probably get her normal just up to level 6. i'm debating if i wanna level my supports beyond level 70 to 80 ... or even 90. i'm so used to 90 --> main dps or a strong sub dps | 80 --> sub dps | 70 --> support or healer ... moved yaoyao onto the magical girl staff since i forgot it's also HP based and more energy recharge to pop her ult is nice

at least lauma is hitting 183k now with her skill pops

new leaf: i installed the welcome amiibo version on my 3ds, and it seems like i can start a new town while still ... having my old one? which is JUST on new leaf ... i hope so. i'm sentimental about my first town so i'd like to NOT delete it if i can ... but if i have an opportunity to make a new one AND still keep my old one? why not. i'll make sylvie in it :]

that's one of the things i'm not sure about. is the save file logic shared between the physical cartridge (which i have) and the digital? is it all on the SD card? cause then the digital new leaf SHOULD see my physical town data (mostly cause sometimes i don't wanna take out tomodachi life which is also a physical cartidge and just pop between the two). i could also just download both digitally and not worry but ehhhhh. im more likely to revisit tomodachi life right now

edit: ok so my save file is ONLY for my physical card, which is perfect; i can just play the digital new leaf and make a new town there with sylvie instead!!!! that will be my goal for tonight

edit 2: town layout rerolling sucks but after an hour i got a pretty decent one!!! retail near beach, plaza central (almost) and mayor building is next to it, secret beach, and a pretty straight path from top to bottom

MY BRAIN IS SITTING HERE LIKE 'look at all these tiny things i can write about' juxtaposted with 'well dreamwidth isn't a microposting site u can't just dump out ur two-liner thoughts or two paragraphs of rambling' and im like AUGH ... maybe ... like i know i could just opt to be like 'don't put on reading page', sometimes i'd like ppl to see it in case they want to comment!!!

i know i could also yap and do my microposting on tumblr or pillowfort but i. i dunno. i just find dreamwidth weirdly more comfortable to do it on. WHICH IS WEIRD bc pillowfort is JUST as private if i wanted it to be. i guess it's because this feels like MY journal vs just posting on a social media site. probably why i also used twitter for so long before it went into the absolute shithole because i had a private account and could limit who sees what; it was MY hole. tumblr is great, but it doesn't have that

i could always return to my website microblog but it's tedious to write anything because i'd continually go back to it and have to edit the HTML then do the HTML in the first place to make said new micropost ... thoughts.page exists literally for microposting but ... its just ... microposting. no tags, no longform stuff, no real way to view what others post, nothing to support that.

i know i can do it, but its hard to tell my brain!!!!!

edit: wait im stupid i could technically make my pillowfort private but its like...... it doesnt feel the same i guess? with it being a much slower social media, i dont feel the need to private it vs twitter which is an avalanche of content and u just wanna hide amidst it all

i say as if i haven't also posted it here haha, augh. i'm so thankful for the people who have opted to sign up to review the book. i genuinely want my friend to have a success with her second debut (esp since i did the cover art with a full humanoid illustration this time), it's just definitely so hard to get people hooked in if you don't have a giant outreach or money to dump on review sites to try to scrape a few people who may pick up the book, and may review it ...

marketing for books sucks so bad bro. and her previous book only had a 1-star review that was AI generated which completely tanked a lot of the chances of that book (and said person came from a review site!!! i was like wattahell!!! we paid to get reviewers and ur here dumping out stupid shit to inflate ur reviews!!!!!)

it's just so hard to work through the feeling of reaching out and not feeling like i'm shilling myself LOOOL. i gotta make a list of book reviewers to reach out to as well slowly through the month ... the thing is--its more like idm mentioning it once, but having to repost, re-mention things makes me feel insane in bad ways like 'oh god im being fucking annoying' AUSASUAH to be fair im the same w/posting commission info, id rather just post it once and sit and wait (but life doesnt work like that)

(even though i dont think the same of others also reposting commissions/aid posts/other posts of reaching out)

more for my own brain sake to know wtf i’m doing

• turn one of the relationships that isn’t my ocs/parents (no idk why i made them years ago) into kavetham
• start migrating some old ocs from ppl i don’t talk to into fictional faves that i don’t mind in ships (elsa x jack energy)
• find out how to take screenshots to send to PC
• try to swap out some of the room themes cause why the hell did i give them to ppl…

old indeed cause i think the last time i genuinely played was like 2015-2016 ... i have my parents there, my irl friends, a shitload of OCs, mako and haru from free! for some reason, and ... i decided to add sylvie, zhongli, and two of my newer ocs to celebrate getting back into it LMFAO

i also found out there's a puzzle and dragons spinoff for the 3ds and that's sick as hell. ive been playing the mobile game on and off for years now so it's nice to have a game for it that isn't 'pray to god you don't get shit pulls and need to have premium currency to rerun a dungeon where the boss insta-nukes you because you don't have a good enough team'

new years goal is every month to draw sylvie in a slutty outfit. half joking but it sure would be one way to guarantee i do at least ONE art every month and i already got inspo off a different artwork to draw them in a one piece body suit. im so normal about them